Checking in with...myself

Every now and then, I have these mid-life crisis which cause me to evaluate my entire life at that very moment. I wish I had my friends here with me because we would sit around a coffee table and just talk life. Our conversation was just about anything. i.e. how our life was at that very moment. what we need to strive to accomplish, our financial stress, emotional stress, things we need to improve on, things we need to kick to the curb, etc.

Looking back on the past quarters, we always had some degree of a mid-life crisis. It never went away as we got older or even when we matured. Our problems will always be there but how we deal with them is the determining factor. I believe it was the late night talks with my girls (Ben&Jerry's sure helped) that got me through the best four years of my life!

Flash forward to today: If there was one important thing that I learned in college, it was checking in with myself.

So here goes:

Mommy: Loving it but wishing i had more time in the day to spend with my baby girl. Hard, stressful trying to get things in order. No time to run to the store and run errands in the day. Is Eden suffering because of my absence? She seems happy and always gives me a big hug when I come and pick her up from school. Doing my best.

Finances: Working on it. Next paycheck is going to daycare, paying off student loan, need to pay car insurance soon :( By July, I really need to be caught up with bills. Update expense excel sheet this week. Don't forget to pickup diapers this week. Gave last bundle to daycare.

Stress level: I'm about a 7 right now. Work getting a lot busier but do like the fact that the work days go by quicker. September needs to come faster...wait no...take that back. Totally not ready. Need to dedicate more time to studying. Financial stress still a burden. Need to win the lotto this year.

Spiritual growth: going back to church was a good thing. I feel the difference spiritually. Doing this for myself and for Eden. Trying to learn to put the stress off myself and onto Him. Need to dedicate some time to read the bible.

Daughter/friend: could probably spruce it up a bit. Will help mom out more and speak slower so she can hear me. Need to call my friends. I miss them too much. Set time this weekend to call a friend.

Plans: bday party this weekend. Buy gift. Plan Eden's bday at school. Put together party favors for classmate. Finish making props for photo shoot.

Conclusion: Don' stop moving. There's lots to do in so little time! Look at her for inspiration!