Today just felt like a completely different day without her. I woke up staring at her crib with no baby in sight. I knew I had to keep myself preoccupied and what better way to do so is through chores. Feeling motivated, I did a deep cleaning of my room. I wouldn't have done it if I had Eden with me because time would not have permitted me to do such a thing so that was great! I folded laundry, made breakfast, paid bills, picked up my prescriptions at CVS, couponed, organized my stockpile, soaked all of Eden's bottles and ran it through an autoclave machine-twice. I even went to the library to do some studying. By mid-afternoon, I found myself bored out of my mind. Dying to know how my Eden was doing, I called Jonathan to ask if everything was all right and if I can rescue her now. He responded that she was doing fine and didn't need any rescuing. Darn!
I was in need of my friend, Belen to come and just be with me. We talked about life and came to the conclusion that "real" life really suck. There are too many responsibilities and we wished we were still living the college days free of worries. We had dinner at Yoshino and it was delicious! I ordered a snappy roll; one of my favorite rolls there. Belen would hate me if I didn't mention that we had the cutest happa waitor tabling us. Finally, we finished the night by getting thrifty ice cream at Rite Aid. Yum! Now I am at home in front of my computer looking at pictures of Eden and wishing she was in my arms right now.
Everything I did today reminded of her. It's so hard to let her go. I don't know how I'm going to handle letting her go off to college. Oh my! I'm not gonna go there. I'll be weeping before you know it. Can Monday come by faster so that I can see my darling baby!?!
Signed,
Sobbing Mother
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